Just A Dream
In my final hour of sleep, I had a dream that left me feeling very bothered. Most of it took place at my Grandparent’s house, but many friends and acquaintances were present. I fought furiously with some family members who generally give me absolutely no reason to. They treated me like a 10-year-old, and I acted as such. I poured my soul to someone who recently let me down in a big way. Was...
Love Vs. Infatuation
I seem to fall into these patterns. One relationship of love. One of infatuation. One of love. One of infatuation. Hopefully this means love is next. I hear love is patient and kind. I always seem to mistake infatuation for love. And I mistake love for something disposable. I’m trying not to make the same mistakes this time.
Said I Was Gonna Stay Away
But at this point and in these situations, it’s not possible. Besides, I needed it right now. A chapter is ending. Has ended. And a new one begins soon. Maybe. I measure my chapters in relationships. I measure my relationships in chapters.
Bummer In The Summer
Last night was pretty depressing. But I saw it coming for a long time. Luckily I have some super solid friends around. As much as I want to go out tonight, I really shouldn’t. Too much editing to do and too much drinking in my recent past anyway. Kristen is trying to tempt me over to her apartment though and it’s tough to resist. When are they gonna start making Beer Zero? All...
Things I've Been Doing A Lot Of Lately
Biking. Eating soup. Drinking tea. Drinking beer. Attending musical events. Getting editing gigs. Sleeping several times a day for short periods each time. Loving life. Most of these I plan on doing quite a bit more of in the near future.
Woke up early to meet the boss man, Carlos. He bought me breakfast at Flame’s while we transferred footage to my computer for me to edit. It’s taken me far too long but I finally have it all logged & transferred. Came home and worked on getting all the footage in order which took a little longer than I had hoped it would. Then took a nap. Went downtown to Left Coast Live...
Back On Top
Helping a friend edit a project for her job this week. I love being a/the person people go to for editing help/advice. Makes me feel like I actually know something about something. Speaking of that, I went with Kristen last night to buy a new bike because she thinks I know something about bikes. Totally awesome. Gonna be riding buddies now. Getting together with the boss man sometime this...
On Cleaning Out My Closet
I realized recently as a result of a conversation with my step-mom, a separate conversation with friends and packing up things in my apartment that I keep too much. I keep things for sentimental reasons. I keep things that I think I might use in the future. I keep things that I probably won’t use but can’t justify throwing away because they’re still perfectly usable. I get...
iammattjordan: Limp Bizkit - Break Stuff If you didn’t live in the 90s and say the words “give me something to break” or “break your fuckin’ face tonight”, there’s a level of love I feel I can’t ever have for you. I think you better quit lettin’ shit slip, or you’ll be leavin’ with a fat lip!
He felt that his whole life was some kind of dream and he sometimes wondered...– Douglas Adams (via theshalom)
The Whole Blah Damn Thing
Silas Botwin: Yeah, sure. Death is no big deal. Because life is just... blah, blah, blah.
Andy Botwin: Look, Silas... Life is just blah, blah, blah. You hope for blah, and sometimes you find it, but mostly it's blah. And waiting for blah. And hoping you were right about the blahs you made. And then, just when you think you've got the whole blah damn thing figured out, and you're surrounded by the ones you blah, death shows up. And blah, blah, blah.
Silas Botwin: [sighs] Alright. Let's do this.
Shane Botwin: [to Andy] That was good.
Andy Botwin: I have my moments.
Life, I really believe, is about falling in love. with ideas, with stories, with...– (via amusemi) (via meekus) I could not agree more with this sentiment.
You Can Waste Your Negative Energy Elsewhere
Because I’m loving life now too much to care how much you hate me or want to bring me down. I cannot remember the last time I was as happy as I have been lately. I’ve got a bunch of great things going for me and/or ahead of me. Haters gon’ hate.
kari-shma: Passion Pit | Dreams (The Cranberries...
The New Grind
I didn’t write about it here yet so here are some of the highlights of my new job that I started Saturday. Photo/video shoot at girl’s house. Pretty straight forward. Photo/video at the church. Haven’t been to a church in years. Mariachi band. At the church and the reception. Super awesome. Photo/video at the Santa Cruz boardwalk. Carlos (owner) trying to talk a crazy...
First Day Starts
In an hour. It’s going to be a 12-hour day. And I just slept for 2. And I’m supposed to go somewhere after I get off of work as well. I’m gonna need some coffee.
Fall 2010 Schedule
Naturally, this could change before the semester actually starts. But for now, this is what I’ve got and I’m very happy about it. Post-Production & Delivery Alternative Photo Processes Intermediate Bowling Sexualities Study of Women
clifferded: Cadaver Neckbone Legendary Dragon ...
Smoking marijuana barely affects driving...
ohyeahfacts: (source) Oh Yeah Facts does not condone driving under the influence, so you can’t blame us if your parents flip shit. How many times have I tried to argue this point…?
Last night was… Yea. Don’t know else to say about that. Tonight is going to be next level. That’s the plan, anyway. Must prepare my body. Must start hydrating now.
I have a more or less open day ahead of me. Very little I have to do. A lot I can do. Clean up apartment a bit, maybe even begin packing. Bike around downtown. Take apartment application to new potential apartment. Shoot stuff & hang out with Nes & Ryan. Watch more Weeds. (Half way through season 4 now, barreling through them) Living the life.
Jessica & I checked out an apartment today that we both seemed to really like. Our applications will be in tomorrow and our chances are looking pretty good. I turned in my 30 days notice at my current apartment tonight. I also got the first phone call from Daniel since he’s been home which was fantastic. Great conversation. Things are really going well for him. And now for...
On Getting The Fuckin' Shot
This morning I was awoken by a phone call, requesting an interview. For today. For two hours from that phone call. And since I’m not doing anything else all day these days and since it was for a job I replied to a craigslist ad for (twice), I eagerly obliged. Made sure to get there 15 minutes early because it was at a cafe and I wanted an iced tea. Partially to quench my thirst,...
My Top 5 Artists (Week Ending 2010-6-13) →
Maps & Atlases (115) Minus the Bear (10) The Dirty Projectors (8) Dirty Projectors (1) Dirty Projectors & David Byrne (1) Imported from Last.fm Tumblr by JoeLaz
The Girl Is Back In Town
Spent the weekend in Vacaville. But after a few days I had to get out and get back to San Jose. It’s not that I didn’t have a good time in Vacaville, I did. But really, there isn’t much for me there these days. And San Jose really is my home now. So I kind of missed it. Being back in Vacaville brought me to several realizations about my self and my life in it’s...
I Find Myself
Posting personal updates a lot less frequently lately. Not really sure how I feel about that. Last night was next level. Kristen is finally 21. Had quite a night. Here are some things I want to and have to do today: Eat something. Take YLW DVD to Anne Fountain. Handle the whole, I didn’t graduate, thing. Bike around checking out places for rent. Turn in a resume. Cupertino High...
jessicatipton: In all honesty, I never really feel connected with anyone in groups of people. It’s like I’m always the odd person out and as hard as I try I feel like I can never be as close with people as I wish I could be. I know exactly what you mean.
charlesvincent: what you do on your own time’s just fine. My imagination’s much worse, i just never wanna know… My imagination is so much worse, I need to know for peace of mind…
The only way to get what you really want, is to know what you really want. And...– Mike Dooley (via kari-shma)